AMANTE DE LA LUNA

I guess I failed that promise I made one day of forgetting you.

I confess, I don’t feel particular proud of it.

But how could you blame me… when your memories,

are always finding ways to break my barriers.

I don’t know what else could I have said…

if saying something would have changed the future.

Seems to me now, there was no way of reaching you.

The walls you built, they were strong,

and kept you safe… but you lost me… if that meant anything.

I guess I decided to be strong and keep walking,

but this mix of agony and happiness didn’t left with you.

It is easier to understand now, when I have healed my wounds, but…

it doesn’t make it easier on my heart.

I tried to listen my soul, just to find it trapped in my contradictions.

I guess it was easier to blame you back them,

but there is no use now, when is evident

that all my intents to escape,

just lead me back to you.

I guess my memories kept on following the trace of your scent,

imagining your smile. And time was kind enough to allow me,

eventually, to accept my fate of loving you,

and until this day, I haven’t been able to do otherwise.

There is no apology that can undo the wrongdoings, nor that I even

deserve forgiveness. And I know, no actions would allow you

to recover those sleepless nights. I guess I loved you more than you needed,

and I failed to tame my heart… a sorrow I carry with me…

I told you one day, that one can only understand what one feels,

and I felt my heart escaping my chest at the touch of your lips,

is unclear to me what are the feelings that escaped from you that night,

or the many nights when you reread me…